Disclaimer: Read at your own risk. I’ve been thoroughly irritated while writing it.

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It is almost noon right now as I begin to pen this post. Just a minute to 12 P.M.

Rainfall. It is extremely ironical, the month is one wherein the rain gods should be blessing us with enough water to keep the planet green and living but somehow sunlight is making its presence felt such that it were new to town. It is all over the place. What happened to the rain I ask myself? Where did it go? What about the thousands who do not get water to drink? What about all the land that remains parched? My heart goes out to the farmer who stands on his parched land and prays for rains come every single day. What happened to the rains?

Swine flu. An occurrence that is simply scaring the living daylights out of all of us now. Viruses-invisible bloody creatures- are wreaking havoc in a city that has too many people. The fact that it is extremely infectious is so scary because in Mumbai you CANNOT I repeat you CANNOT walk into a train or a bus and not bang into at least 3 people at the same time. Also the people in the country are so much in love with one another that it is impossible to be devoid of humans just about anywhere. We are teeming with humans- a field day for the H1N1 virus. Somehow we have become a danger to everyone else? What happened I ask myself again? Did we not have enough of illnesses to kill that a new one had to jump into the bandwagon to add to our discomfort?

Reality. Bloody reality. I am short of words. Honestly, I hate that word and the existence of reality. Basically we are all here to get ourselves kicked. I’ve read too much about how tough life is. But my question is-why are we having to face a tough life? What have we done? What is the crime? Just that we were born into this earth?

Education system. It is a bloody mess! Damn the system! Damn the politicians! Damn the human race who wanted communication! Damn hieroglyphics! Why? Why it is necessary to study C, C++ and Java? I don’t give a hoot about it. I don’t like it. I won’t do it. Why should I be something I’m not? Just because some moronic rascals fashioned the system that way? What the hell! Why should I pay for their mistakes and their pleasures? I am not supposed to. When I was born God didn’t tell me, “Sameen you are here to suffer the consequences of the things the other people did, that were here before you.” He did not tell me that. Then why should I?

Unfinished dreams. Now that is something that I simply hate. Why should things be left unfinished? There should be a closure. A proper death ceremony if need be. But things should be finished the way they deserve to be. I can curse. I can whine. I can cry and when I die I will take this to the grave with me-That things should be finished. When things go wrong one should completely destroy all evidence of it. Smash it, make it bleed but suck all life out of it. Because I don’t want to be a wounded soldier! I’d rather be fit to fight or dead!

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Prayer. I find solace in that only one thing now. Praying that everything turns out alright. Insha-allah it will…